I have been thinking this ... but it was not until I received an email from a friend early this morning ... her words were "purging old conditioning" ...
**head tilted ... still thinking what this meant to me**
What showed up as flu like symptoms ... oh yes they were definitely real, no doubt about that ... but it took me to a higher level of understanding my intuition ... one that I had been questioning when even I didn't recognize I was questioning it. It is time for me to re-evaluate what I am doing, what I am taking, how I am eating, and who I am BEing. I began thinking about my products and what IS working for me and what is not. Even though the experts tout it to be the best thing since sliced bread, those that are not supporting me energetically, are on the "out" list. Not a conscious decision, but an energetic decision.
The eating part is easy, from now on I ingest whatever I feel like. It is just that easy. Whose bleepin old conditioning was it anyway that made me label a food good or bad, right or wrong?
I had the same conditioning about over the counter drugs ... I have been off them for over 10 years ... and I feel I personified a leader who used natural methods of getting thru symptoms. Well this current bout of symptoms shook my belief system. Was it necessary to feel this much pain as I broke through? What was this telling others? And how many can put up with so much pain? Why was I judging over the counter drugs? Here I felt I was upholding a "clean body" standard.
Somehow ... it is not a truth for me ... and thus I received this lesson to learn from.
It is about Judgment.
Judgment about how I perceived people on a certain product and yet I continued to take the product, seeing just as little effectiveness as everyone else I was judging.
Yeahhh ... WOW!!!
Judgment about certain foods. Yes certain foods cause distress in my body ... so the target now is to evaluate which foods make my body feel better and choose more of those than others. But if once in a while, I DID CHOOSE to eat that item, it will be done with the same love I feel when I eat my favorites. And I'm no longer going to buy into any cripe of what "experts" say. WOW! .... did I really write that???
OK now that I have my bravery hat on ... Let's continue ...
Who am I BEing? ... especially when I'm down and out flat on my back with fever, uncontrollable chills, coughing til retching, splitting headaches, unable to even sit up without swirling with vertigo ...
I have been stoic about not "showing my pain" as I never wished to be perceived as a whiner (yeahhhh ... another judgment) ... however, we as humans DO go through bouts of symptoms, and it is a pain in the ass to be in pain, EVEN when it is done in private. There are times when drastic measures are needed ... and this would be one of those instances! Next time! Symptoms Heed Warning ... I WILL BLAST YOU right outta here! I will arm myself with an arsenal you haven't ever seen in my household!
So in closing, I wish to leave you with this ... BE YOUR OWN ADVOCATE! Trust your body in all issues important to your health. Ask for its guidance. You already have everything you need.
with much Love,
PS. I just asked my body while standing in front of the cabinet with the supplements to take what it needed ... as I alternately held each bottle in my hands ... I cannot even begin to describe the "energized" and "warm feelings" that I immediately felt while doing this. Why couldn't you gain the benefits of the product energetically? What else is possible? Keep asking ...