Let me explain what I’m “getting” … for instance, I have pain on the tops of my thigh, on the outer most portion on the top section of my thigh … it feels like nerve pain … and all it takes is for Lily to tap lightly with her paw to tell me she wants something, as she did this morning on the drive in to town … This is not an area that was not even touched yesterday in my session …
The only logical understanding that I can comprehend from this is “the walls are cracking, opening if you will” … The walls that encased all the pain, hurt, mistrust, caring, shielding … the protection that has lived all these years in my fat cells which served to protect me … since I was “in utero” … yeahhh … difficult for me to even fathom, let alone transcribe these feelings, these knowings, into words that I can put on paper …
And during a recent exchange in understanding within a community of like minded dear hearts, I can quite literally understand and agree with the pains associated with growing … as I continue to expand outward, stretching my limbs, elongating them if you will … sometimes not as graceful as a cat’s stretching … but, nonetheless, just as effective … allowing myself to expand, not only in my knowing … my soul knowledge, but also in my physical body … embracing the pains that come with that … for I am realizing that with pain comes understanding about what is happening … which, by the way, has absolutely nothing in common with “no pain, no gain” … I wonder which hulk came up with that 2-3 decades ago … it is the ‘be’ing in “allowance” of the beauty that is unfurling that I get to see …
And so I get to see, with my heart, how this pain is pinpointing where the fissures are as they widen … allowing that which I have held so closely … to empty and discharge … no longer holding me prisoner within my own body … even though I created it … to protect me and keep me sane and safe … until I could reach this point in my life … when all is revealed in a language that I understand.
In Loving Gratitude~
Karin